So one of my main characters in Skyrim is my nord Vahlok. He’s level 46 and super friendly.
We cleaned out the dark brotherhood sanctuary with great nord passion.
He’s been my most favorite character so far. And since the release of Skyrim i’ve made around 6 different characters. Few made it past level 20 because I would get bored with the build. So I created Vahlok around probably 4 months ago. And we’ve gone through so much shit together he feels less like an avatar and more like an old friend you can come back to after the real world kinda shits on your face.
Call me crazy.
I remember after my ex broke up with me I had no drive to play games. Like none. All I wanted to do was drink and emotionally stab myself over what had happened. Because for the most part all the games I had we used to play together.
So one day I was feeling up to it and put skyrim on. And for the most part left it running for about an hour just letting the ambient music play. Totally letting the game just sit there. And just out of nowhere I started playing again. And slowly, over time, started to feel better about everything. Of course real life had a play in the healing as well, like talking to friends and family.
Sometimes when the world just isn’t enough. People find solace in fiction.
How convenient. Destroy the Marker and all the hurt and pain go away. Imagine it, Isaac: You’ll never have to listen to your heart.
So it’s been awhile…
I deleted my old tumblr a long time ago because of a VERY bad breakup.
Annd I miss it.